So to those of you that knew me back then. I'm sorry! I'm sorry if I ever said or did anything to hurt you. I am sure there are things I did that I don't even remember! I promise that 12 year old girl didn't mean it she just wanted to fit in.
|I wish some one would have told me this years ago!|
As I now navigate this terrifying time with Eliana I am just as unsure of how to act. Every time I drop her off I say things like, "today you're going to be kind", "you're not going to make fun of people even if everyone else is," "treat others the way you want them to treat you". I then leave her and pray. I pray that she is a better person than I was at that age. That she is a good friend. That she won't have the scars that I have.
Then God reminds me it's her life not mine. No matter what I say or how I expected her to act she is still her own person. That her behavior is not a reflection of me. That I have to let go and let her become who He wants her to be. That my past failures and hurts were terrible and I do not want to re-live junior high. But without those experiences I wouldn't be who I am today.
So instead of fear I will pray for wisdom in this season of parenting. That I help her navigate her feelings and friendship with poise and grace. That God's love will shine through both of us as we are on this journey together!
Proverbs 31:26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.